Hey Dabbers,
It has been some time since I've been on or requested pray. Things at home and in marriage had gotten better for a short while. My husband was back home and working on restoring our family. Things then got hard for him and the woman that I now know he was having an affair with before returning home, kept popping up needing this and that. Of course the enemy sent a devil wrapped up in just what he thinks he wants and he fell again. This woman is 17 years younger than him with 2 children and just ended her 3rd marriage. His mind is far gone and not on his family at all. My daughters are again not speaking to there their father and he has been back out of the home again for about 5 weeks. He has not called or spoken to any of us since he left. He has not given any money and in fact he has now been cashing bad checks in our savings account which is now overdrawn. He's not helping and he's hurting even more. As much as I'm hurt by the situation I find myself in, I know that God allows things for a reason. I am trying so hard to see God in the midst of all of this. There are times when I'm right there doing very well. Then there are times like right now (our 24th wedding anniversary is this weekend) when I feel like I don't know how I'm going to make it. I have found it in my heart to forgive him for so much and he keeps piling on more and more. I realize I have to find a way to forgive this woman as well. I'm trying so hard but I'm not there yet. I want to really get all that God has for me during the incredible storm. Please pray for me as I try to hear God and his directions. People say that I should take him to court. I understand that feeling but I also don't want to have to make someone be responsible. My head is spinning and I just want to do what God is directing. I just need strength and peace to be able to go through this difficult time. Please keep me and my family in your prayers.
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