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I don't want my marriage to end. Please, pray for my wife and I.
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Hello DAB family. I am reaching out today because I sense God leading me to do it but I haven't done so yet since only learning about and arriving to this community a week ago. My marriage is in utter shambles. For now I will just share the current and now that are the circumstances of my life at this moment. On December 1st, as my wife and I sat down to watch tv together after having just put our 4 kids to bed, she told me she wants a divorce. She said that she is done, and wants out and no longer wants to be married to me. After a 3 1/2 hour long discussion about all our issues and the why's and the how's etc etc, I discovered through her that she has had feelings for another man for a year. She told me that she recently shared with him a few weeks before this night (Dec 1st) that she had feelings for him and he reciprocated in kind. Now she claims she wants to be with him. After this night, was when I realized God was urging me back to him, as I walked out on my relationship with God for the past 10 years, living a very lukewarm Christian life. I'm sad to say that I also discovered that my wife's heart has become very hardened towards God, and her relationship with him as that was the example I had set over the past 11 years of our marriage. I want reconciliation for our marriage, I have already told her that I have forgiven her for the emotional affair she is currently involved in, and I want our marriage to start fresh and Christ centered as it should have in the first place. She doesn't see it this way. I also think she has yet to forgive me for the way I myself have lived in sin the past 10 years. I do not blame God for my current circumstances, I know and realize that the choices I have made in my life have led to where my wife and I are now. I have begun a month ago now giving up the things that have kept me from having a healthy collaborative relationship with God, and am now also working on letting go of the things that steal the life away from the nurturing aspect of my heart and soul, so that I can let the Holy Spirit nurture and fill me up, and not my earthly and worldly possessions. I really hope and pray for my marriage, that God will work a miracle within it, and that God will urge my wife back to Him as he has done for me. I am still struggling with the thought that divorce could become a very real possibility for me. More than anything, I want mine and God's relationship to keep growing as it is, I would also like for my wife's and I's marriage to be rekindled and grow and nurture through God. My wife seems convinced that divorce will not affect our kids in any way and that they will be just fine but I know this is not true. She also seems convinced that divorce is her only option and only way out. I wanted to call this in, but I cant keep my composure even as I'm typing this I am in tears. The pain and hurt is very real, and I feel like I can't get away from it. I know and believe that God's ways are not like our ways, and I know and believe that His answer to our prayers may be different than what we thought or wanted, but it will better than we could imagine. I have faith that my marriage can be restored. Please pray for my marriage, for me, and for my wife. God I praise you for urging me back to you, I am thankful that even though my current circumstances in life are what they are, you and you alone can still fill me up with joy and peace.
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Jason Diaz 12/30/2015 13:39 |
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anthony bradford
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12/30/2015 14:08 |
Jason,,, this is for you and your wife to pray daily:
Prayer to Restore a Marriage Heavenly Father, I come before you today with a heavy heart; my marriage is in trouble, and I need your help. Make changes in my spouse's heart. Make us compatible again, and bring us closer together. Fill us with your love and give us the strength to love one another, care for one another, and fulfill your destiny for us. Show us the harm caused by careless words, and the pain caused by emotional distance. Bring us together, like we once were. Show us how to love one another again. Heal the division between us. Make us one again. In your name I pray, Amen. - See more at: http://www.prayers-for-special-help.com/marriage-prayer.html#sthash.EKF8fM1r.dpuf
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JT
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12/31/2015 18:10 |
Jason, I can feel for you. I'm praying alongside you brother knowing that God does have this under control. I pray for your wife's heart to be softened and her mind to be cleared. I pray moreover that she reach out to our God and listens to what He has to say. God is with your family every step of the way and I hope that your wife sees this and that your marriage not only stays but grows even stronger with Gods blessings
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