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Praise
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One-year anniversary
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Today is the one-year anniversary of the attempt on my life by my son. I have gone through an extreme range of emotions today as I still try to process what it all means. In the end I am reminded that all that matters is that God is always in control even in the worst of times, and that He is always good. I praise Him! I glorify His name!
Instead of today being the anniversary of my death as it should have been, it is the anniversary of my new life, of a second chance, of reconciliation and hope, and of God's endless love and mercy. Instead of dwelling on the why or the ugliness of that past incident, I will focus on the gift of life new every morning, of potential and promise, of purpose and strength that comes only from my Savior, my Lord Jesus Christ.
The immense bounty of His love fills me, His joy overwhelms me, and in tears I praise His name for rescuing me, protecting me, and setting my feet firmly again on the Rock. What a beautiful life I now have, one that I would never ask to change, never regret how I got here. Seeing the outcome, I would not change a thing. It gets rough at times, especially when the physical and mental reminders of my injuries try to discourage me, but what a small price to pay for the glory revealed to me and for the hope of eternity that I now KNOW is real. What a tiny price to pay for the healing of my spirit and my marriage.
Today I walk because of Him, have use of my hands and arms through Him. I think and speak because of His mercy, I laugh and enjoy my restored marriage by the power of His reconciliation. I have a godly husband, a priceless gift from Father. He has given me the desires of my heart.
I thank Him today for His courage, which has filled the voids that exist in my humanity. I am reminded of the scripture He gave me after awakening in ICU days later to the joy of realizing that I was alive with another chance to be the hands and feet of Jesus to a dying world:
Isaiah 41:10 "Don’t be afraid, for I am with you. Don’t be discouraged, for I am your God. I will strengthen you and help you. I will hold you up with my victorious right hand. "
Amen. Praise His Holy Name. Lord, I thank You for those who have kept me in their prayers. Bless them mightly. I ask that You give me the strength and wisdom to know Your purpose for my life and to then live it daily. In Jesus name.
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deborah 09/28/2010 20:13 |
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Craig from Illinois
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09/28/2010 21:39 |
I remember that podcast when Brian told us that we should pray for our dear Moderator Debbie. Shocking news, fearful hearts and groaning of the Spirit who interceded for the things we did not know or understand. God is GREAT for all that He has provided!
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Penelope
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09/28/2010 22:01 |
Oh Deb,
I experienced so many different emotions, reading your testimony.
In the beginning my heart stopped when you said who your attacker was. I found myself breathless and hurting. What courage it must have taken to share that. And then, as I continued to read, I felt your indescribable hope! The restoration you've experienced! The joy you now have! Words escape me. Glory to God in the highest!
Your post brought me to tears, but such different tears than those I shed a year ago after hearing about your attack! Now I'm crying tears of joy and praise. Your testimony is amazing. I praise God for you, and for what He has done in your life.
Thank you for sharing with us.
With much love.
Penelope
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Helga
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09/29/2010 22:59 |
Thank you for sharing Deb. It truely inspired me and I pray that God will use you mightily because of your obidience.
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Leslie
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09/30/2010 08:12 |
Deb, So grateful you posted. I still remember it like it was yesterday. Still praying, always praying. You are my friend and more than that, my sister in Christ. I love you. Thanking Jesus for all He has done in your life in the last year.
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Calico
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10/02/2010 16:17 |
We are all blessed by what God has graced you with, Deb :-)
I am thankful for beautiful, loving detail in what you have shared above, and for what has happened in your life in Him in the last year. I too remember that podcast where Brian spoke of what had happened. I remember Googling it, and I have often prayed not only for you, but also for your son, even if that has not been known by you until now. I will still continue on with those prayers.
May God continue to lift you, Deb, and may His love continue to be poured out to DAB through you.
Praying with you,
Tom
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Kelley
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10/05/2010 15:07 |
I remember the day I heard too Deb, actually it was Tom (Calico) who told me, and we talked and prayed together as he looked up what happened on the net and read it to me. I remember just feeling paralized by grief for you. You haven't been on the site as often since then so you can't imagine how wonderful it is to read this anniversary note and hear you sounding so well, so happy, so blessed by Your Lord. Thank you for letting us know! Thank You Jesus for the joy of restoration on so many levels!
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