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Bibleman
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06/24/2012 15:00 |
i scrapped my spiritual journey and started from scratch. cut contact with he bible study i was leading
and stopped idenfitying myself as a christian. dived back into the 80s rock n roll i had thrown out
in my spiritual phase, and began learning more and more guitar. i set about improving myself
as a person in a non bible focused way. i stopped calling myself a christian
and have referred to myself as a deist since then. i still consider myself embarassed to
group myself with a lot of these people who call themselves christians. i deepened as a person without any sort of jesus focus.
and since a debilitating if not life threatening case of hand foot and mouth disease, i have had a
powerful reasakening of my spirit. i have a very real taste of my mortality, finally, at 21. and have
had a major shift again in my heart. i have had a wild ride and i am looking forward to what is next. although right now,
i just want to get off work and go home!
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Catholica
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06/25/2012 14:47 |
James, I'm glad to hear that you recovered and are ok. A lot can happen in a year...
The deism stuff might be too heavy for this thread, I dunno, not my thread!
What led you to hold deism to be true?
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Calico
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06/25/2012 16:00 |
Good to have talked on Friday, James, bro-hugs.
;-)
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Craig from Illinois
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06/26/2012 22:32 |
James,
Your two responses coupled together makes for a very interesting story indeed! I think I know where you are coming from with your first response that " people on the outside (and I mean EVERYONE), nothing has changed, but my life has changed drastically." I remember very well that feeling when I stopped drinking. It's a weird place to be because you have so much to share but so little time and energy to explain all the intricate details.
I do hope you will give us some of your time and share those details when you are ready. I'm glad to see you back and look forward to your new perspectives on life.
Craig
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Bibleman
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06/27/2012 19:59 |
hmm...Catholica, as I said, things are changing. Well, guess what? I'm somewhere in between deism and 'jesus - freak - ianity' (I will avoid using the word Christian for now...).
Deism is, as you know, the belief in the existence of God, coupled with a skepticism for the varied belief systems in the world (in particular, religion). Following a massive spiritual upheaval, my life shifted gears away from the Bible and towards debauchery. I can't tell you how many times I thought to myself, 'what if I am the Antichrist? I'm already a spoiled saint, and the most evil people are those who have fallen from the greatest goodness." And I actually smirked at the thought! It is one small example of where I was spiritually and mentally.
And Craig, thanks for the words! I have improved in many areas of my life, and I would say self - expression (at least of the deep stuff) has improved. All of my experiences - the pains, the feel-good moments, the joy, the sadness - all of that which has occurred over the past year - has been beautiful. And I'm happy it has led me back here to DAB, back to my old bible study, and back to my GGWO Bible College friends. And I am happy for every step of the way - the sin and the prayers.
I don't know how much sense that makes to you guys, but its how I feel looking back on everything that has happened. ^_^
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Bibleman
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06/27/2012 20:00 |
and Tom, it was great to talk with you, even if we talked in circles after a little while.
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Davidwayne Lackey
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06/27/2012 23:11 |
Welcome back James. Have been praying for you a lot this past year. I hope this does not sound trite but I have been where you are and know the path of the wayward son. It's a phase that most of us who started young have gone through, bad language debauchery and all things worldly. Questioning all faith because of the confusion of denominations, even to the point of denial of God as if we could judge Him by what people do. In the end it is not any religion or denomination that saves, it is Jesus. It's like we have to go through all these phases of turmoil and doubt and the grief those things bring before we wind up back where we belong into the arms of
Jesus. The things we learn because of them opening our eyes to a greater appreciation of the depth of heart Jesus has that we could not see till we have left then come back.
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Kelley
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06/28/2012 01:58 |
Hug, James.
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Bibleman
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06/28/2012 08:51 |
yes, Dave. trite but true!
Hugs Kelley!
and...pain is beautiful. look at what we've learned from it!
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Rachel Krueger
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06/28/2012 09:31 |
Beauty from ashes my friend! What a great journey you've been on!
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