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Bible Questions and Spiritual Discussion
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I don't want to share...
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I'm not sure why I have the urge to share with you all my personals, other then that I care for all of you and want to testify to the goodness of my God. Please, as you read this, do not judge, simply use this as a learning tool for the lesson that God is teaching me today.
It seems that whenever I have a serious lesson from God, that it always wrenches my heart. Last night was no different. Last night I had a dream, a dream that I was a spectator to and could not intervene as I do in most dreams.
I was in the car with Chelsey, going about our regular busy lives when Chelsey possed a question to me: "Jon, what would you think about me marrying a second man. I would not divorce you, but I would marry him as well."
I didn't put any thought into this when I answered: "That would be cool."
Next thing I know I'm standing like a proud father alongside Chelsey's father as we watch the ceremony of Chelsey taking this mans hand in marriage. As the ceremony finished I ended up in the car alone with this new man, we were on our way back home and talking about all of our interests when it struck me. What have I done...
This man is surely going to be with my wife, and even if I allowed that, would he honor my wife all of his days? Or would he decide to divorce her in a few years? Would my wife begin to love him more as I toiled in the worries of this life to support my family? Would my wife begin to love me less? Would she begin to cherish him more and me less? So many thoughts...
There was no rage in me, just merely the feelin as if I had just lost my wife forever. My heart began to twist and to physically ache as I slept. My throat went sore and my back began to hurt, my body ached as if I was sick with the flu. I had no thoughts running through my mind, it's still as I write this completely blank. The only thing that I can think of is Chelsey and how she was to give the love that was meant for me, to another...
As I was waking up from my nightmare God spoke to me. "I don't want to share you either."
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jonathonbyrd 06/27/2011 02:26 |
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Davidwayne Lackey
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06/27/2011 21:45 |
Jon, thanks for sharing. I love this dream.
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John (Yuahan) smith
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06/28/2011 14:25 |
usually if we break through God has a blessing for us. Thanks for posting.
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Helga
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06/28/2011 23:30 |
Yes what a message from God and whow in such a different way.
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Kelley
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07/25/2011 05:14 |
Wow. Gripping analogy. Thank you for sharing it.
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Claire Stanniland
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08/21/2011 09:28 |
A powerful message, thank you for sharing it.
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GodB4Me
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08/24/2011 11:13 |
Great....
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